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I LOVE YOU, HENRY CHINASKI.

February 4, 2020

NEW: Introducing Gold Bars Audiostories, raw narrated versions for those who prefer listening over reading.    Dear C̶h̶a̶r̶l̶e̶s̶ ̶B̶u̶k̶o̶w̶s̶k̶i̶  Henry Chinaski, Jesus Christ, to think that I was a step away from never reading this whirlwind of a coming-of-age story of yours in the first place. We got off on the wrong...

5 MINUTES OF MINDFUCK

January 28, 2020

5 MINUTES OF MINDFUCK The tip of his finger slid down the spine, feeling every bump in the title along the way. Thin charcoal letters, seared into the creamy white hardcover. He paused. Tilted his head to the side. Raised an eyebrow. Why was he in the back of...

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RESILIENCE IS A BITCH.

January 21, 2020

 “Resilience is the process of adapting well in the face of adversity, trauma, tragedy, threats or significant sources of stress — such as family and relationship problems, serious health problems or workplace and financial stressors.” (Source: American Psychological Association) I was supposed to be dead by now. Six...

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“AND HE DEVOURED HER FROM THE PAINTING.”

January 14, 2020

Open. One word, one post-it note, one box on my desk. Pupils dilated and hands shaking, I removed the lid. Another post-it, six narrow rectangular boxes inside. The wand chooses the wizard. (You’re going to need one) Dumbfounded and awkward, I started opening each small box to reveal six...

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ALICE IN NIGHTMARELAND

January 7, 2020

Typewriter Tales is a series of raw scans with freestyle character-building stories chaotically written on my typewriter in one sitting. The stories reside on the fine line between fiction and reality, as each character is strongly inspired by a real person in my life, intertwined with my own soul, and...

gia at 12 years old right when depression started

NAKED: How Depression Killed My Spirit as a Child

December 17, 2019

“What’s on your arm? Georgi, what is that on your arm?! What did you do???” My mother’s voice quavered as she pulled up the rest of the long sleeve I had so carelessly forgotten to tug down when washing the dishes. 41 cuts. 41 cleanly sliced lines, criss-crossing from...

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GEORGE ORWELL, I NEVER THOUGHT I’D SEE YOU LIKE THIS

December 10, 2019

Dear George Orwell, Your dystopian masterpieces haunted my transition from adolescence to adulthood. Despite my intense and lifelong passion for people, 1984 and Animal Farm made me question the good I naively thought resided in every human. But nothing could prepare me for your self-imposed exile into poverty. I...

And her mentor said, “Thank you for keeping this art form alive.” | Waana’s Story

December 3, 2019

There it was. The ultimate treasure chest. Her grandma’s awe-inspiring shoe collection, shimmering in the room that served as her closet, just waiting to be discovered in all its glory. She double-checked to make sure the coast was clear and pulled out the first pair she could get her...

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remorse is her word of honor

November 26, 2019

remorse is her word of honor The familiar taste of hot vomit was creeping up her throat again, but she swallowed it down effortlessly. Every last type of alcohol in the room was in her stomach, broiling to the rhythm of Rip Her to Shreds that threatened to blow...

LESSONS FROM A FAILED RAPPER

November 19, 2019

Now, this is a story all about how I cautiously tried and miserably failed with rap music throughout the years. I never strived to become a full-time musician, but I sure as hell collected a shitload of lessons as I dipped into the craft. This is what I learned....